Wednesday, September 12, 2007

Carlee's got an ear infection and a sinus infection - she woke this morning with..."mom, I've got boogers". And, in fact, she did have boogers. That just means that I get a day off work - and even though she's sick, I still enjoy my time with her.

Mingle, schmingle

I just got back from SLC last night - had to go to a conference with work. Everytime I go to one of these types of things I realize how really awkward I feel in some situations. I can make myself be social, but I think God heard a lot of "please help me know what to say, and not say something stupid" in the last 3 days. I'm not a good mingler (is that even a word? we'll define it as someone who mingles).

I wonder if a lot of people get that anxious feeling - not knowing what to say and not wanting to sound stupid? Or, am I floating in that boat alone? It sure seemed like it was second nature for all of these people - like I was the only one who felt like a goof. Hum...I'm pretty sure it's all about confidence. I think I need to muster a little more of that up!

I was so ready to come home I could hardly stand it.

Magnificant Obsession

I love the words to this song.

Give me one pure and holy passion
Give me one magnificant obsession
Give me one glorious ambition for my life
To know and follow hard after you.

Every single time I hear it, I get a lump in my throat. I've never really tought about why until today.

Right now he's not my passion, or my "maginificant obsession". Why is it so easy to be passionate about being a good mom and wife, being a good friend, doing well at my job? I think the lump in my throat is becuase I know that I don't have the same passion and obsession for my God. Isn't that crazy. God loves me and cares for me - he has sustained me, lifted me up, provided for me, died for me - but I'm not obsessed with him. I'm obsessed with making sure my house is cleaned (in case someone comes to look at it) but I'm not obsessed with Him? Hum...doesn't make much sense when I really think about it.

I love the word magnificant...

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