Wednesday, November 28, 2007

Today was my appt. and we got to hear the baby's heartbeat - it was the first time and it was music to my ears. We go back January 9 for blood work and the ultrasound...with the holidays it seems like it's going by fast. I'm still getting sick in the mornings, but feel better later in the day.

I'm so sad for my sweet friends - they lost their precious baby this week - at 15 weeks. I can't even fathom the saddness and grief they must feel. It doesn't make sense why things like this happen...I just don't get it.

Sunday, November 25, 2007

Widsom from a Little Guy

You would have thought my little nephew was taking notes in church this morning...

My sister and I were out shopping for stocking stuffers for the kids today and my sister ran into a relative on Jarrad's side. They had a little conversation about Thanksgiving then Kerry mentioned that Brett was going to send out birthday party invitations - and was excited to invite her little boy. She responded by saying that her little boy was having a birthday party too...and couldn't wait to invite Brett. Turns out his party is planned the same day Brett's. Kerry was a little bummed, but didn't say anything to the mom about having Brett's party planned for the same day. When we got home, she "broke" the news to Brett - expecting that he would be as disappointed as she was. But, his response was "That's cool mom! We can either change mine to another day or just find out what time his is and have mine at another time".

No "poor me", No being bummed out and wanting the day just for himself. Brett found joy in the fact that he was going to get to go to another birthday party! Pretty wise for an almost 6 year old!

I've got a lot to learn!

Saturday, November 24, 2007


I almost forgot...Carlee got her first shiner Wednesday. I'll post a picture as soon as I figure it out.

She was holding hands and running with her friend at school and somehow they ran into each other...Carlee got the bad end of the deal. The other little girl's head hit Carlee's eye. The daycare called me at work to warn me that it looked really bad. And, it does.

We called her "shiner" yesterday...she said "I'm not shiner, I'm a big girl". :)

So Blessed

We have a "Thankful" book that we write in every year - a tradition that began about 7 years ago with my family...just like it sounds, everyone writes about what they are thankful for. Last night I read back through it. Funny that the first year I wrote in it, I didn't even know's amazing to see how my life has changed over the past 7 years, and how God's hand has been guiding me.

I read my grandpa's entry...where he wrote to my entire family and told us that above all else, remember that God loves us - and he passed away 7 months later. I read my dad's writing - about how thankful he was for his two grandsons (that's all he had back then) how he loved playing "cowboys" with them - and I smile a big smile...I read my mom's entry the Thanksgiving after she lost the love of her life and I realized how blessed I am to have an amazing mother who could still find joy and see blessings after her loss. I saw entries from friends and family who joined us for Thanksgiving because they didn't have another place to go, and read of their thankfulness to have a place to spend Thanksgiving.

This year, I'm thankful for my precious family - for a husband who loves me regardless...for a sweet, sweet little girl who makes me smile and smile and smile...for the little baby who is going to join us next year...for a wonderful church family...for precious friends...for the ability to go to work every day...for the ability to build this house...and most of all, for a savior who loves me.


Tuesday, November 20, 2007

Oh Man...

My appt. was supposed to be today...but they called an hour before and told me we would have to re-schedule for another day - my Dr. was in surgery and wouldn't be out in time. I know someone needed him much more than I did...but I was still disappointed. I've been looking so, so forward to getting to hear the heartbeat. 13 1/2 weeks and I still haven't gotten to hear that precious sound! So, now I go next Wednesday.

The other thing that stinks is that I was hoping to go BEFORE Thanksgiving...the plan was to go and weigh before the holiday - then load up on mashed potatoes and rolls, and maybe by my December appointment I could have all the weight I was planning on gaining with the Thanksgiving meals worked off. Don't get me wrong, I'm still going to load up on mashed potatoes and rolls, they'll just have to understand the 10 lb weight gain when I get on that stinkin' scale on Wednesday! :)

Here's my funny conversation with Carlee tonight:
Me: Carlee, do you want to go to Nana and Papa's house tomorrow.
Carlee: Nana and Papa's?
Me: Yes, Nana and Papa's.
Carlee: I don't want to sleep in that tent.
Me: You don't have to sleep in a tent, we'll sleep in Nana and Papa's house.
Carlee: I'll sleep in Nana's van. I don't like tents.

If you recall...back in September we tried the first "camping" trip, which didn't work out because she completely freaked out when we tried to put her in the tent. We've been back to visit several times since then, but this is the first time she has mentioned the tent. funny stuff.

Monday, November 19, 2007

Emotional Messiness

I'm OK now

Yesterday I had a bit of a break-down moment with my friend at church (thanks Becca). All she did was ask how I was feeling...a simple question it would seem. I'm apparently an emotional mess right now. I started off the morning bossing Chris around and getting him fired up, then while talking to him about leading our home group, came to the realization that I absolutely am not where I need or want to be spiritually...which made me more frustrated with myself (and a little bit with him for some reason) - I'm pretty certain that was not God's intent when He pointed that out to me...I'm thinking he wanted less anger and more desire to just start doing it! But, in my emotional messiness, I just got angry with myself.

A pain in my heart

This morning when Chris and I were driving to work we got stopped in traffic about 15 minutes into the drive. It was really foggy, so we were sure there was either a wreck or a stop light out. After about 30 minutes of sitting in traffic we got to the scene of an accident. I shouldn't have looked at the car - but I did - and I couldn't take my eyes off of it. I knew instantly there was no way a person could have survived. My heart broke. I felt (and still feel) emotions come up that I haven't felt in a really, really long time. I couldn't help but think of the family that was going to get that terrible phone call this that was going to change their lives forever. My heart broke for them - knowing that that they will always have to wonder if the person they loved was scared? did they know what was happening? were they in pain? And, the realization that on Thursday, when Thanksgiving comes around, they aren't going to be there and Christmas, and birthdays and every other special time...lives are changed forever in just a second. I found out later in the day that this was a single mother with a daughter in her first year of college and one in 4th grade. Please pray for them today. My prayer is that people surround and love these girls the same way they did me, my sisters and my mom when we had to go through it. I don't think it ever gets just get used to it.

Monday, November 12, 2007

Driveway Drama

Chris came to my desk today in a bit of a panic - he said his eye was twitching...The people working on our road called to say that a lady next door came over throwing a fit saying that we didn't have a right to build our driveway there and demanding that they stop're almost done and have $5000 worth of driveway already built. She was on her way to call the mayor. But...the mayor wasn't working today since it's Veteran's day so neither the crazy, mean lady nor I got to talk to the mayor. Not how I wanted my day to go today.

Not much to worry about because my mom talked to the mayor's office back in July when she was deeding the land to us to make sure where we should build the driveway and we build it right where they told us to.

I'm thinking the mayor and I are going to become friends tomorrow. Fun times...

Sunday, November 11, 2007

A Bunch of Rambling

They've almost got our driveway done - I think it will be finished tomorrow. Exciting! We've just got to pick a builder now...that's the scary part! We've got two to pick from right now. One is more expensive, but have heard great things about him - the other is less expensive but we don't know many people who have used him. My gut says to go with the first one. We'll see.

I felt great last week while I was in Lexington (by the way...we got to see Kentucky get beat by Gardner-Webb). For some reason, once I got back here, it all went down-hill. Today has been the worst day. Maybe with some sleep tonight, I'll feel better. At 12 weeks now, so hopefully it will get better soon.

I'm anxious for my appt on the 20th. Get to hear the heartbeat. I still find myself being very nervous.

Funny story...
My neice Jenna is a funny little girl - let's just say she has lots of charisma. She was in trouble on the way home a week or so ago and my sister told her that she was going to get a spanking when they got home. When they got home, my sister told her to go into her room. She got down on her knees in front of Jenna and explained why she was going to get a spanking - to which Jenna responded with "Mommy, lets pray"....

Sunday, November 4, 2007

Sick, sick, sick today. ugh...and trying to do laundry, clean and pack for Lexington. Carlee watched way too many movies today.

Still have a lot to do. I wish I wasn't traveling this week.

Saturday, November 3, 2007

The Construction Begins

I think we found someone to build our house and do the dirtwork/driveway...I'm starting to get nervous! Excited, but nervous.
Chris is meeting them at the land today to decide where they'll build the pad etc. I really, really want to get this thing done so that we can move in at least while I'm on maternity leave. We've picked a terrible time to start building...but I guess we didn't pick it - it just kind of happened.
I get excited when I look at the plans. I think we're really going to love it. We're both kind of ignorant when it comes to stuff like this, so we're just praying for honest people to work with who will tell us the truth and do the right thing.

Date Night
Chris and I had a great time on our date last night. Ate dinner at Garfield's (b/c we didn't have much time) and saw The life of Dave (I think that's what it was called). It was pretty good. Made me cry - I didn't really want that, but it was inevitable. We picked Carlee up at 9:30 and were all back at home in bed by 10:30. Carlee slept until 9:30 this morning! We have to pull her out of bed at 6:30 every morning and she's a grouch like her mommy. Today she has been so sweet...It's amazing what a little extra sleep can do!

Thursday, November 1, 2007

Ride 'em Cowgirls

Memaw is in Vegas with her sister, for the National Finals Rodeo. Ye Haw! They love it. Mom and Dad used to go every year. It was just their thing. But after dad died she quit going for a couple of years. At some point she decided that she still loved it and wasn't going to quit going so she got my aunt hooked (she's a widow too - my uncle died when I was a sr in high school). They get all cowgirled up and head for Vegas once a year now...I love seeing them so excited. Mom was up EARLY this morning - kind of like a kid before Christmas.

I love you mommy
Carlee really, really wants to eat all the 20 lbs of candy in her pumpkin. So, I heard "I love you mommy" several times tonight. She always says that before she asks me something she knows I'm going to say no to...pretty smart little girl!

It's a date
Aunt Tricia offered to keep Carlee tomorrow night so that Chris and I can go on a date (thanks Aunt Tricia). Yea for us! I can't wait.

One more trip
I've got to leave for Lexington, KY on Monday and won't get back until Thursday. Long time to not see Chris and Carlee. I'm already missing them! But, this is my last time to travel for the year. It won't start back up again until February or March. This time its a pre-season NCAA basketball tournament at the University of Kentucky...probably won't be as exciting as my usual NASCAR crowd! More people wearing shirts and with teeth I imagine.