In case you're wondering...I am a loser. Well, not totally a loser - because I think I've got some pretty good qualities. But loser in the sense that I am not going to do what I said I was going to do. Remember back when I was so sure that I was going to run that 5K in LR? Well, I'm not. Once I got sick and my kids got sick, I never stepped on the treadmill again. And, once you quit getting up at 5, it's pretty darn hard to start doing it again. Even if it's just 30 minutes more sleep. 30 extra minutes is awesome! So, I gave up. I don't like it. But, I did it.
Last week, I got back on the treadmill and have been very consistent. No more pressure, no more guilt. Just doing what I can - which I think is what I need right now.
And...no more house cleaner. After getting rates I decided I would just do it myself. I'm just too cheap. Maybe one of these days it will be important enough to me to pay what I've got to pay to get someone to do it. Until then, I'll either have a messy house, or be tired from cleaning it myself.